Monday, January 23, 2012

The Reluctant Believer


Parents imbibe certain values in their children which they think would help their tiny tots in becoming respectable figures in the society of hypocrites, well there do exist a faction of people whom you can call considerably upstanding. The parents would teach their children to be truthful, honest, kind, merciful, polite, and the list of “good looking” words goes on until infinitum. The biggies are hopeful (I don’t know why) that their little ones will suck up all their teachings and will turn up to be good citizens. Well, it’s their duty, I know, but isn’t it forceful feeding to the kid about your own ideology and asking them to absorb your peremptory norms.

Rewind time and let’s go back to my childhood, where my parents would keep my after playtime evening time booked for reciting some bhajans or kirtans with my siblings. Irony is that I liked doing it back then, with my cousins, it was actually fun to do, walking and singing the bhajans and grinning after looking into each other’s eyes. And if you ask me to do that now, I will surely hang myself upside down. Back then I used to do it not because I was spiritual but because of the fun involved in it and lately I have realised that am not at all the same.

God, another word which is slowly evanescing from my assorted psyche, the powerful word for most mortals in which I used to believe (I still do a little). God, soulful immortal, my parents told me to believe in, and I did for a long period of time before my lost and wandering (don’t know for what) mind ceased to think that god exists. Hit the rewind button again, I used to fold my hands in front of some idols and pictures, which my parents described as GOD, I believed. God to me is not more than fiction and talking in Indian context, the Geeta, Mahabharat and Veds are simply splendid jobs done by fictitious fiction authors. I maybe wrong here but that is what I BELIEVE now.

Caste, in India pertains to stigma and the society is pigeonholed into it since ages. Being born in a middle class Brahmin family, the prejudiced caste system should have been caricatured in my mind but my family was miles away from it except for one thing which I will tell later on.
Hit the rewind button (okay, it’s the last time), I received from my parents to consider everyone equal regardless of caste or race and yes I still believe in it unlike a few other things. There were people from lower strata of the society who would visit my grandfather for help or guidance and he would treat them as one of his own, not maintaining a gap called casteism. He/she would be given tea/water in the same cup/glass and no difference was being kept with those people. So growing up seeing what my family believed in, I believed. 

Who will hit the forward button to know the other one thing? I don’t really have to go back to my childhood to tell you this. I often tell my father (jokingly) that I’ll marry a girl who I like whatever her caste may be; my father will frown upon this and will say that you will have to marry a Gaur Brahmin girl only. My mother and I would laugh endlessly just to see that frowned look of my father and his same old words.





PS: My parents would be vexed if they see this :P
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